Having found a different outlet for soul expansion, I took a year long break from blogging and began livestreaming videos on my social media account. I recently became aware of a need to return to blogging. There are topics that are best discussed through written word to give the reader time to digest, return to concepts, and truly take in what is being touched on. The concept of reflections is one of them.
Much like what we see when we look at a mirror, everyone who stands before us reflects that which is quietly within us. Whether we choose to acknowledge this or not, it is a truth that is very difficult for many to understand and much less accept about themselves for, often times, the aspects of ourselves that we see reflected in others are the parts we need to work on but refuse to acknowledge.
I had sent out a mass love bomb (a message of upliftment, love, and call for unification of self and soul to provide light to any who may quietly be in darkness). One individual had replied with a message that I wasn't sure how to interpret. They had mentioned their belief that I was spreading fear and that they felt afraid and that caused them to need distance. I am all about giving to those what they need. There is no hesitation when someone expresses to me that they have a specific need from me, especially a need for distance. I personally believe each of us are traveling a sacred journey and I honor each step each person chooses to take whether that be closer to me, in tandem with my own steps, or steps leading them away. What I did not quite understand was the statement that I was somehow inducing fear intentionally. The term used was inception... planting seeds of fear.
I do not live a fear based life. I am near devoid of it, with moments I do feel fear being few and fleeting. I have developed a deep understanding of my life and the events that have affected me in such a way as to shape my views, my character, and tempered my strength. Fear can be used for purpose but I do not find use for prolonged periods of it or, worse, living in a chronic state of it. So when an individual comes to me stating I am spreading fear, it creates confusion in me. To purposely induce fear in another feels like a violation of the sacredness of their journey... a forced contraction when the soul seeks to expand. I could never and would never. It is one of the subtleties of myself that I take very much seriously and never compromise on.
I thought on this for a moment. I looked at it from varying vantage points before I realized what was going on. My words were being run through this person's filter of fear. The truths I was discussing regarding events and various possibilities in public postings rang as truth within this person and they became fearful of the unknown. Instead of hearing me say "I do not say this from a place of fear" or "there is no need to feel afraid", the "darker" part of the message is what was fixated on. So when they began insinuating I was purposely seeding fear into their private mind, it became pertinent for me to clarify. I had to point out that at no point were any of my posts that allegedly created fear in them directed at them. They were not tagged on any public posts, nothing was placed on their private profile, and no private messages sent regarding those topics. In fact, our interaction was so minimal that one could even say we don't interact. It also became pertinent to reiterate that at no point do I access or use extrasensory abilities to scan individuals without first gaining their permission or agreement hence the reason I was not aware there was some unspoken need for distance. Still they were upset and I am ok with that because I learned a few things.
As I am continuing to ascend, I involute and old lessons resurface so I may look at them deeper. I have worked hard for many years to not allow fear to rule my life. Because of the way certain feelings and thoughts were worded when expressed, it caused me to circle back round on the need for others to not view me as crazy or weird. I recognize that this person has such a hard time hearing the things that they quietly know and feel is truth within their hearts because they do not want to be seen by others as crazy or weird. That is completely understandable. Not all possess the fortitude to stand by their truths with no apologies and no shame. I sometimes still struggle with it myself. It is a daily decision to honor my truth, share my journey with no censors or edits, and to hold my head high. I recognize and acknowledge the part of me that still sometimes quietly wonders if people think I have lost my mind.
It's at moments like this where I have to pause. I have come such a long way. I refuse to be harsh with myself for the resurfacing of residual issues. Yes, at certain times and with certain people, I would prefer they think I am normal. But more importantly, I recognize that the beauty of my truth is what these people are drawn to in the first place. There is no other in the whole of creation that has walked the path I have, lived the life I have, or shone with the same intensity as me. I stand as a beacon to those who are awakening. I stand as a testament to the fulfillment of sacred promises made by the Prime Creator for a New Beginning rooted in a foundation of LOVE. I am my own unique frequency that composes the song of my journey. The bassline is my heartbeat and lyrics the whispered truths from my soul.
So here I am, staring at a reflection of my fading former self in another being... with nothing but love for the old version of me. She was afraid. She survived so much. She was tempered by the flame of her journey and forged by her truth. She is me. I am her with head held high and no fear in my eyes. I have no shame for my truth and will share with any who choose to listen. I'll continue to have no apologies for how people receive my call for unification of self, the reclamation of the power in our birthright, and the rejection of fear through the embracing of love. This exchange has, however, shone a light on my delivery. It has made me aware that some still need a more gentler delivery of messages from Creation. Not all are ready to hear things just said matter of fact. I refuse to sugarcoat truths so a middle ground must be established where comfort zones are pushed to their outer limits but not so far that the message is lost and the fear is all that is left. I promise, I do not seek to induce fear of the unknown. I seek only to share my truth to any and all whom are ready to hear it. You don't even need to accept it as truth. Simply be ready to hear... be open to my sharing the truth of my journey because I know I am as much a reflection of you as you are of me. Let us all learn from each other peaceably. Tis my desire to have us all living our truths and sharing with no edits or censors... no apologies for the steps we take and no shame for the direction we are headed. We must heal as a Collective. We no longer have the luxury of shunning others for being reflections of our innerself.
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